When I know that you are crying to yourself, and I asked if I could help in any way, you told me you are alright. I really hope you are cos I do feel quite helpless not knowing how to help you at all when I hear you crying to yourself. It's easy for me to say be easy on yourself, life's pretty messy, no one's perfect, you don't have to be perfect.
But I find it hard to tell the same lines to myself when tears roll these two days. I don't know if I had been too hard on myself. Each day I start off, I try to do better. But the harder I try, the worse the results. I know it doesn't have to be perfect, but I didn't think it could be that bad.
When the tears roll, I didn't want you or them to see them either. So maybe I understand now why you always cry silently to yourself. I guess we are sisters after all. We have both mastered the art of crying w/o sound. But you are crying too frequently, I wish I can be of some help. But when I hear you cry, my tears seemed very insignificant and the reason for my tears fade away....
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Wednesday, February 04, 2009
Complimentary red packet from the airline (I flew on 3rd day of CNY) (Hahaha, realised it has been a while since i posted pics of myself)
Buying Bus Ticket // A "notice" on the snack store at the Bus Station
On our trip to search for Mount Pinatubo (which we never got to, apparently we got cheated and were brought to another mountain
The way up!
What we saw
Kids on the way up and down the mountain, they lead a simple life, no shoes, clothes with holes and they run faster than the jeep (even when we travel upslope).
Before boarding ferry ride towards Coron// Dog sniffing through our bags for prohibited items
Sunrise on the ferry deck
Coron, Palawan
Overload Jeepney!!!!!!
The Sangat Island Reserve, an offshore island from Coron that we stayed at for a night
That's the yacht that we slept on for a night, need to tread water there (not that I mind, can sleep on the yacht ley) //unbelievably clear water
Went kayaking, put our head in the water to check out the corals in the sea.........
exploring the island, made our way into a hidden mangrove ...................................
..............and there was a natural hot spring hidden behind the mangrove.........
Enough of Kayaking and exploring....... Sunset on the Sangant Island
Resort well equipped with pool table and bar.......perfect and highly recommended place for relaxation
Back to Manila..... Manila Cathedral and random shot in Intramuras, old spanish town in Manila
Manila's St Andres Fruit Market 24hrs....Purple eggs? and we went into a nearby supermarket and everyone there buy heaps and heaps of things.... can see the loaded trolleys at the check out counters???
All in all, Philippines' a great place, though not for Manila, at least in my opinion, the best of Philippines is away from Manila.... Great company, great place, great getaway from the cold in HK.
If you like: Sangat Island Stay: http://www.sangat.com.ph
paper curtain in Philippines...*** random thoughts of my own, feel free to ignore, pinning down for self reference****
That night, while I was lying on the top of the yacht, looking at the stars in the sky, I started to think about a lot of things. The sky view was awesome, many many stars, and saw a few shooting stars even (yes, I made lotsa wishes of cos)..........I thought about life and living. Conversation with Daddy later triggered my thoughts further, "How many nights in one's life will one be able to enjoy views like that? What you do now, you are building memories for later in life, there would be a moment in which you will think back about what you have been doing, have you been living your life or have you been working it away? We have been fortunate to be born as humans at a time like this, think about the probability of being alive in this specific moment, so cherish and live life as a human"
Like shooting stars, appearing in the sky for a split second and then woosh they are gone. Maybe that's just how our life is like to this universe. Unanswered questions in my head, I feel v.v.very insignificant in this universe, insecure as to how I am existing, afraid of losing life, suddenly everything else seem a little less important, much more redundant..............maybe we are like matchsticks that have been strike, it's that short and quick.
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